That Contributing Feeling

In my last post, I talked about our move to Tennessee to get the Hubs all settled and ready for school. It has been an absolutely wonderful two weeks. I have felt good and things have been going great. My lupus has never been better and I am able to do things and run errands like never before. I look back and ask myself, why? Why do I feel so well, and able to do things that I usually struggle with at home? I don't have an answer. The only answer I can come up with is I have gone from taking care of a 3,000 square foot house to a two bedroom apartment. At home, there are dust bunnies and dirty dishes because I don't feel like walking all the way to the kitchen to put them in the dishwasher and it is too hard to walk up the stairs to clean my daughters room. Here, it is spotless. The beds are made everyday and the laundry is caught up. What is up with that? The honest truth is, that I like the smaller space to take care of. I don't mind doing these things because I can do everything in less than 30 minutes and have this place so clean that you can eat off the floor, and that makes me feel good!!!! I am actually doing something!!!! I am contributing to the well being of my family!!!! It has been so long since I have been able to do this, I forgot how good it feels!!!

I don't know where the road will go from here. I don't know what the next three years will hold for my family and myself. I will be going back to Alabama this weekend and starting back to work on Monday. I will still be in my 3,000 square foot house minus my helping hands. Am I scared?? Absolutely to death!!!!! Will I get it done?? Maybe, maybe not. I just never knew how much I missed this feeling of contributing to my family.

If you are able to contribute, I know you may wish you had help. In the long run, I may have to finagle my budget and hire help once a week. I don't know, but don't take your ability to be able to do things for granted. Be thankful you are able to contribute.

Wish me luck as I begin my new life as I leave Tennessee and make my way back to my new life with a husband in college and having to be the head of the household. Pray that I stay healthy and I am able to make the best decisions for my family.

Have a happy Thursday!!

~Tiffany~